Quitting

If motherhood was a paying gig, today i would have quit. Crying, whining, teething, sibling rivalry, and stomach bugs all around have conquered my last ounce of determination. I am usually pretty worn thin by Thursday anyway, but today i reached the end. Lack of sleep has certainly not helped. Let's be honest. We all want to walk out some days. A few weeks ago this desire to leave it all behind would have sent me into a downward spiral of guilt and hopelessness; but God sent an amazingly honest lady across my path. She heard my weary voice and shared that even when raising her two children, she had times of wanting to drive till the road ended and stay there. Just hearing that someone else has felt that way has kept me from spiraling for the past two weeks. God is not afraid of our honesty, so can we not be afraid to be honest with each other? This fear of being transparent about motherhood is probably what has driven some moms to drive their van full of kids into the ocean. May we never judge, but only come along side and pray and help and walk this sometimes incredibly hard journey together. If you are struggling with being overwhelmed and wanting to run away it is ok. Find another mom somewhere even if it is at a playground and share a little. If you are struggling with this on a darker level. Maybe panic attacks, anger, rage, immobilizing sadness, or violence toward yourself or others, call your Dr asap or find a hospital or even call a help line like 1-800-A-Family and talk to someone who can direct you to local help. Even if you don't have insurance or money, get the help. The money will work out. Praying for all moms to get some much needed rest and find an honest friend to do this life with.